What I want...

So I was reading a book by E. Lynn Harris, the bestselling gay black author, and one of the main characters was talking about he didnt want to become the tragic gay black man who never finds love and becomes bitter because of the double negative of homosexuality and Black skin color. It got me thinking about how I think I have come to embody that stereotype, even as I try and proclaim that it isnt me. The character, Sean, tried to resolve his dilemma by putting his trust in the church, but after being sexually assaulted by the preacher he gave up his faith. While I dont think faith is the answer to my problems, I do think Harris was right in saying that we have to decide what we want to find what the solution to our problems may be. So in that spirit, I've made up my Want List for next year. Not wish, want, because I"M going to make it happen.

Jon's Want List 2006

1) A Post-Grad plan of action
2) A new outlook on life
3) More friends, less associates
4) A post holiday job
5) Find a new hobby
6) Get in shape
7) Stop being so giving
8) Stop being so critical
9) Stop being so available
10) Deal with my own issues instead of other peoples
11) Respect myself and demand it from other people
12) Cut "dead weight" people off
13) Meditate more often
14) Stop saying "yes"
15) Be loved by someone

There you go. The Re-Invention of 2006 has begun.